This IS the Right Decision

If you know me, and probably, if you're reading this, you do. . .you know that I can have the tendency to make a decision without weighing all the consequences and then just doing the best I can to survive the many ramifications of the decision. Now, I do make rational, well-thought-out decisions also, but it seems like those aren't the ones that stick out in my mind. LOL

Well, I have battled the decision to go back to school full-time for several months. I went back and forth, trying to figure out how it would work, how I would support my children, how I could be all the things that life has its expectations set upon for me. And I went back and forth, forth and back, then back and forth again. So the decision to announce to my boss that I was, in fact, going to be leaving to go back to school just kind of set the decision in stone.

I don't know that I heard God's voice telling me, "You go ahead. I'll take care of the details." But what I do know is that on the way to work on Monday morning, God was speaking to me, even if I was not completely aware of it.

See that's the cool thing about faith. You go back and forth trying to work it out in your head, and then you end up in this place where you are confident that it can't work, that you're too afraid of the uncertainties and the changes ahead, and then. . .BAM! God puts it all in place.

Without going into much detail (I'm not really at a liberty to go into those at this time), God revealed to me Thursday evening that I had, in fact, made the blessed choice. He is going to take care of me as I seek my education and go to nursing school. He is going to make all the schedules work, even though I still can't see most of it. But He has been faithful to give me my heart's desires, on so many levels. I just simply had to take that small leap of faith.

God is so good, so big, and so loving. I know that at times I struggle with an inability to see this just the way it really is. But God is my Father. And, just as I would give my children everything they really desired (assuming money were no issue), than how much more does my Father in Heaven who possesses and created everything going to give to me as I desire?

Of course, that doesn't necessarily mean that He's going to drop the keys to a brand new Honda Pilot in my hands tomorrow, or the land for my dream home. . .because it is in His perfect timing that He fulfills our desires. But what I know is that He is going to give me my deepest desires. . .and after Thursday's revelation. . .I'm almost anxious to see what comes next. I still have some deep desires that He hasn't granted me, but I know that He is preparing me for those blessings just the way He prepared me for this one.

Nursing school isn't going to be easy, but at least now I know that this is exactly when and where God wants me to go after it.

GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME; ALL THE TIME GOD IS GOOD!